Whole30 is not for me

Yup. I made it 14 days. 14 long excruciating hungry days. I feel pretty awful about throwing in the towel but it just wasn’t working for me. Instead of feeling amazing I was starting to feel starved. I wasn’t eating, all the food started tasting bland to me. I don’t usually like a million harsh rules and I don’t think I read up enough on this diet before jumping in.

That being said, I don’t regret going through these long 2 weeks. I have learned so much about food and how it affects my body. I feel like, even though my sugar cravings have no magically gone away, I know I can survive without sweets. Not that I really want to. But I can. I had toast with breakfast this morning. I forgot how delicious bread was. I ate it plain. No butter, no jelly, nothing. So I felt like even though I cheated, I did it in a healthy way. So I don’t feel to bad.

I am programmed to feel failure the second something doesn’t work out. So that is how I feel. Like a huge failure. Like I let everyone down who was watching my progress; my family, friends, people I don’t even know.

Part of the reason I couldn’t continue is because it was effecting me psychologically. I started to feel like I was back in high school dealing with eating disorders. Someday’s I am mentally stable and others I am an emotional mess. I have been a mess for 2 weeks. So I had to call it quits. But the lessons I learned from this diet have been immeasurable.

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